I haven't been able to write these past few days, as not only am I a bit tired and renovating the bar area at work, I had my BIG once a year eye check up yesterday afternoon. I've been a complete bucket of nerves. It's the one appointment that really makes me anxious.
I've worn glasses since before I had diabetes and every year that appointment has been just as scary, as every year my eyes seemed to get worse. The long waiting times, flash light tests, reading tests, colour blindness tests, anaesthetic eye drops, dilation eye drops, more anaesthetic eye drops, numerous fandangled props being thrust at your head to measure this that and the other.... They say it's because you're still growing in to your twenties but that combined with the potential complications of diabetes gets me panicked! Majorly. This year even more so, as with everything that's been going on, I know when I see my GP on Monday, she is going to tell me my HbA1C is too high.
BUT! Would you believe it, my eyes are BETTER than they were 12 months ago! This doesn't mean they're amazing but I have no diabetes complications showing whatsoever...just a bit of hereditary dodgyness and annoyances associated with my astigmatism....
I feel like I've just been gifted a beautiful warm hug full of hope. A blessing. Perhaps I could even say 'another chance'. Most definitely a reminder that my health is largely in my own hands, and it is up to me to take ownership over it everyday. Back to putting diabetes first.
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