Not Quite Right

We're going on holiday soon and the break could not come sooner! I think the year's rough journey is finally taking its toll and catching up with me. I absolutely hate to admit it, but I think I'm about as close to 'empty' and 'burnt out' as I've ever been. There doesn't seem to be any area of my life which is strong, organised and championing forward the way I'd like. Everything is just 'hanging in there'. One of the hardest things about it all though is never really knowing if the way I'm feeling is 'normal' or because I have diabetes. I've blogged about the strange (but sometimes quite comic!) diabetic need to over achieve, and how hard it can be to say 'no', for fear of it being diabetes saying no, or not ever knowing what a non-diabetic would do in the same circumstance. I know I'm not alone in this too as many of you emailed or commented to say you knew exactly what I meant!

I had all my blood tests done on Monday, mainly my HbA1C of course, but with a few added extras because I've been feeling a bit run down. It doesn't seem to matter how many times I get them done, I still hate them! They don't get any easier, and in all the anticipation, my body thinks its funny to spike my blood sugar right before I get tested at the clinic. I don't think I've ever had a reading under 8 (though usually some where around 13 - 15)! Annoyingly, I can't get in to see my doctor (to discuss the results) until November 5th too. In the mean time I guess it's just about sticking to healthy eating, getting back into a consistent exercise regime and keeping those levels in check! Oh and not taking anything else on...perhaps even letting a few things go!

Hey You! Yes You there! Be Happy!

The iBGStar has been fantastic for helping me see just how erratic my blood sugars have been these past two weeks as well. There's so much information captured in the one area that it'll be fantastically informative once I can get into see all the specialists! The only gripe I really have now is that the finger pricker that comes with it, is a bit rough. I had to use my old pricker last night and had forgotten just how kind it used to be to my poor little fingers... so I'm going to make the swap back, despite loving the small size of the pricker which came with the iBGStar.

So I'm a bit beat, though not conquered. Reminding myself of the need to refocus on healthy living once again. Reminding myself everyday of what's important in the bigger picture. Living Happy.